Tonight, like many other nights, I lay awake and watch Hayden sleeping peacefully next to me and I smile to myself. I consider what a beautiful man I have and how wonderful our life together is, I reflect on how much love he has brought me, how he makes me happy every single day and how we will soon have our own little family, with the promise of an incredible future.
Then all too suddenly I’m roused from my thoughts by the intense pressure of my bladder about to burst. I waddle off to the bathroom for the tenth time tonight, pee almost a thimbles worth, before shuffling back to our room feeling completely unrelieved. Laying back down, I look over at him once more and think how beautifully peaceful he still looks and it’s not too long before my smile returns, this time thinking how nice it might be to put a pillow firmly over his smug face.